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December 3rd, 2009

03:46 am - Well poop. It's been almost a year, I think, since I've touched this journal. So much has gone on. The content of the following lj-cut was stored from where I tried to write about all this before, but even it is outdated now. This is probably longer than anyone's going to want to read, but since someone poked me I hope this'll serve as a solid update on my status. I weigh more than I ever have before, and with good reason. Also, my physical activity level is pretty much sitting at zero right now - I have a herniated disc. ( Ankle-saga, Part I ) ( Ankle Saga Part II, and Beyond ) ( Enter: the back pain ) So yeah, not doing so hot in the diet-and-exercise department. The really sucky thing is that I had just stiffened my resolve to try ONE MORE TIME - full out effort to do whatever it takes to lose the two pounds a week that everyone claims is possible. Heck, it'd only take a year to get back below 200, right? Except, that doesn't happen for me. I'm lucky to lose half a pound a week, and can gain half a near-permanent pound in two to three days if I'm not super-careful. Now I'm stuck on my back until this gets resolved. Rowr. Current Mood: verbose

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June 7th, 2008

03:26 pm - Aaannnnd.... With three weeks to go on LA Weight Loss, I start researching MSG and similar compounds, and I think the LA Lite bars are what has had me feeling like crap for the past two months. Not that I don't usually feel like crap. But I'm back on track as far as caring about what I eat, so LAWL has done its job. Now to work on maintaining that, and trying to eat reasonably without caring so much about weight loss. Logically, eating healthy, natural foods in reasonable quantities should result in pounds dropping gradually. I'll just have to keep writing things down so that I don't start sneaking stuff in here and there. Also need to get back to exercising, but my ankle never wants to cooperate. I'd been taking Aleve, and it had been working, but it's apparently doing bad things to my stomach. Current Music: They Might Be Giants - Podcast songs.

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May 7th, 2008

09:11 pm - Well... Four weeks into LA Weight Loss, I was down 8 pounds by their calculations, and four by mine and Curves'. Awfully convenient ratio, that. Then when I went in yesterday I was back up two, with no explanation, and without having done anything any differently. We'll see how tomorrow goes. I am not at all happy with the way my body refuses to shed pounds. I know I should be exercising more, but I've had awful, awful fatigue almost ever since I started this program. Speaking of, I should be in bed. Current Mood: morose

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March 5th, 2008

09:27 pm - Four months later. Hello LJ my old friend I've come to talk with you again ( Warning - depressed and depressing. ) Current Music: Simon & Garfunkle - Sound of Silence

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October 30th, 2007

05:36 pm - Le sigh. Okay, so Power 90 actually kicked off yesterday, and we managed to do it this morning too. 88 days to go, eh? Tomorrow's going to be difficult as the entire office is going to be bringing in their respective specialty sugarbombs, some of which are bound to be INCREDIBLY DELICIOUS LOOKING. But I intend to persevere. I think I'm going to take a blanket to hang across the door of my cubicle so I can pretend the rest of the world isn't there tomorrow... Not that my supervisor will let me get away with that, I'm sure. Is there a Halloween equivalent of "Bah, Humbug!"?

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October 3rd, 2007

05:18 pm - Method #372 Power90 arrived today. Husband and I will be starting Monday. Yay.

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September 17th, 2007

05:10 pm - Eheheheh. So here I am, someone who used to nudge others, having been nudged myself. I don't hit LJ much any more, usually checking my primary account every 2 weeks or so. Diet-wise, I'm nearly back to square one. I caught a bad cold in August, stopped journaling and exercising, and haven't really clawed my way back. I've got a new laptop, and I keep thinking I'll set up my charts on my desktop or something, but it hasn't happened. Life-wise, things are busy. My best friend's dad died in August and I've been helping her out as much as I can, despite the fact that I live 2 hours away. By the end of Spring semester my husband will have his degree in Mechanical Engineering, and since our 4th anniversary is coming up we're planning on trying to have kids soon. I've got three dental appointments between now and then to get cavities filled, so I won't have to worry too much about potential tooth decay while pregnant. Heyoka's nearly full-grown now. We had to get her a larger harness yesterday because she's outgrown the medium-sized one. She's still skittish around people, but then she's only nine months old. There's still time for her to grow out of it. I'll try to hit monthly updates here.

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July 3rd, 2007

10:22 pm - G'night Everybody. Well, there's a failed experiment. I stepped on the scale Sunday and it read 214.4. Granted, part of that is probably due to water retention. Most of it is probably due to fat retention from horrible eating. I stopped journaling, and it killed my results. My friend's wedding is this weekend, and I'll be attending in a McCall's size 22. At least I didn't have to adjust the pattern. I'm not giving up on healthy living. I'm just realizing that I'll probably never hit my goal weight. New goal: weigh less than 200 pounds on 07/07/08. Then we'll work on weighing less than 190 on 07/07/09. New definition of baby steps, there. Springtime is apparently very, very bad for my motivation, energy and eating habits. Silver lining - technically my effort was not wasted. Without all my struggling over the past 52 weeks, I would most likely have reached or exceeded 250 pounds by this point. This year's experiment...... failed. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Menchi's Theme - Excel Saga

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June 15th, 2007

04:27 pm - Week ??/52 Things don't get any easier... I just got back from a business trip to Pennsylvania - which I'd planned to use as an opportunity to get everything back together. I managed to track my intake (with some exceptions) but thanks to the exceptions I'm much higher than I want to be. Additional demotivation in the form of my fingers swelling when I get back to Alabama, making my rings too tight. So yeah. I'm only 10 pounds away from where I was this time last year. So much for progress, and the idea that I could get down to my goal weight in a year. I feel like kicking something. Three weeks until my friend's wedding. Looks like I'll be making my dress to the largest available pattern size after all. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Grand Scheme - Solomon's Wish Tags: 52 weeks

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May 12th, 2007

09:04 am - Week 44/52 I'm officially doing my tracking offline for the last chunk of my 52 Weeks Initiative. Why? Because my motivation has been completely and totally absent for the past three weeks, and I'm back up to where I was when I started throwing huge chunks of money at WeightWatchers back in October. So. Starting tomorrow (after the Mother's Day lunch I'm slated to attend) I'm back on 100% strict diet, and going to try to drag myself out of bed early enough to get through Si6 with healthy bribery - stones for my jar so I can get that Wii. The wedding is in 8 weeks. I'm feeling like I've blown it, but by golly I CAN lose ten pounds in eight weeks if I'm really, really dedicated. I would go into the whole "I hate my metabolism/this is so hard/why does it take months of effort to lose the weight and only weeks to put it back on?" thing, but I've said it all before. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: It's All Been Done - Barenaked Ladies Tags: 52 weeks, slim in 6, venting

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May 1st, 2007

06:22 pm - Week 43/52 Okay. Attempts to complete Slim in 6 seems to result in anxiety and depression, so I've decided to give up on it for now... Current goal is to do really well with Curves, dog walking, and controlling Sugar intake during the month of May, with the hope of getting one of the top percentages or something at Curve. Not being able to keep up with my progress online is messing with me, and I haven't had a chance to transfer all my charts to a working hard-copy... Argh, almost bedtime, and I haven't had dinner yet. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Stay - Lisa Loeb Tags: 52 weeks, slim in 6

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April 28th, 2007

04:22 pm - Week 42/52 Okay, this is pitiful. I'm posting this week's entry on the last day of the week. I haven't even really been trying this week, but the final Round is starting soon. Yes, it's time to give it one last shot. Wish me luck. *Edit* Just to be a little more thorough... Exercise didn't happen much last week, with the exception of 3 Curves sessions and a Heyoka Bike Ride. (We have discovered that Heyoka running alongside me while I ride bike does not result in death, which is good, because my running results in her trotting...) I went WAAAAY over on my points. Boo hoo. Also, I'm dropping back from WW Monthly Pass to eTools, since paying $10 a month is MUCH BETTER than paying $40. Since I'm in roughly the same spot right now as I was when I started paying them six months ago, I think it's a good idea to stop wasting my money. The eTools are great for the recipe function, though. I'll use the first month's savings to buy a hopefully-decent scale. Current Mood: grim Current Music: Opening from Romeo X Juliet Tags: 52 weeks, setback

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April 17th, 2007

09:27 pm - Week 41/52 So the insane dedication mentioned in last week's post has yet to happen. Hello little semi-monthly friend. Attempting to avoid carbs in this situation while getting over a virus? Not. Happening. I can't even begin to list the stuff I've had in the last three days that I shouldn't have. Oh wait, I can. 4 squares from a Lindt Creme Brule chocolate bar. 1 beignet drizzled with cocolate and raspberry sauce. 1 platefull of stuff from my Program Manager's birthday celebration that contained lots of sugar 2 petit fours Sunday for my dad's birthday Some Cadbury biscuits from World Market, and various Japanese snackfoods... You get the point. I didn't even go to weigh-in last week, thanks to the creeping crud. I'm well enough to go walking now, and I'm going to head back into Curves tomorrow, but I'm kind of despairing of making any more headway during my all-wonderful 52 weeks. I just can't get back in the game. Maybe Round 7 will be my saving grace, but with the track record I'm seeing, that ain't gonna happen. The loss of LJ access - my anchor - at work has majorly messed with my motivation. ( Current Music Lyrics ) Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Sound the Bugle - Bryan Adams (From "Spirit - Stallion of the Cimarron" OST) Tags: 52 weeks, injury/illness, setback, venting

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April 12th, 2007

03:41 pm - Week 40/52 Okay, starting Sunday there are exactly 12 weeks left. With insane dedication I could lose 25 pounds in that time frame. Not experiencing that dedication just now because I'm down with yet another virus. Further proof that an apple a day does NOT keep the doctor away. So. Michi's Ladder, Curves, Walking, and as much Si6 as I can stomach, starting Sunday. Okay, go! Current Mood: determined Current Music: Castles in the Sky - Ian Van Dahl Tags: 52 weeks, injury/illness

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April 5th, 2007

08:42 pm - Aaaargh! Well, this officially sucks. In the interest of network security, they've set the system at work to block LJ. So there goes any possibility of regular updates, community participation, and keeping up with my friends list. I'm probably going to move my tracking records over to a blog at ExtraPounds or something, so I can keep up with my charts. Or maybe not. *sigh* Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Life's Gonna Suck When You Grow Up - Dennis Leary

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April 4th, 2007

09:12 am - Things are not improving. I'm still making stupid choices. I had barbecue at the birthday celebration yesterday, and cake, and scraped some extra icing from the cake plate. I had half a small pizza for dinner last night, then a serving of WeightWatchers Chocolate Mousse, which I didn't count. This morning, I gave in and got a rice crispy treat, which I'm also not counting. The problem with feeling crummy is that it makes it that much harder to do the things I need to do. I'm weary, which is not conducive to exercise. Since I can't sleep for days straight, I'm eating things I should pass up in an attempt to feel decent for a short while. It's not working. Today's weigh-in is probably going to push me up above 200 again. Maybe that'll give me the proper motivation. I doubt it, though. I made it through Curves last night, and when I got home my husband suggested that I take Heyoka for her walk while he worked on taxes. By the time I got home, It was after 7:00 and I certainly didn't feel like hitting Si6, since it'd be nearly bedtime before I finished. I'm thinking I need to add to my stone-jar rewards... getting an extra stone for getting up at 5:00 to do Si6 or dog-walking, depending on mood/weather. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Ants Go Marching - Dave Matthews Band Tags: setback, slim in 6

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April 3rd, 2007

10:05 am - Brief Pimpage. I've joined 80_days. Great premise, and I know several of the folks on my friends' list are walkers. Care to lend a hand? They've got a formula for converting other forms of exercise to "miles," too. Current Mood: ambitious Current Music: I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles) - The Proclaimers

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08:54 am - Week 39/52 Already off-plan, and facing burn-out. Where to begin? The frustration's kind of all-encompassing. ( The gory details. ) Eating-wise... I'll skip Friday and Saturday's indiscretions (they involved ice cream and wine)... The problem with 4/1 and 4/2 involve WeightWatchers desserts and finishing off the last of the Godiva truffles I bought last summer. Today's challenge - birthday luncheon at work for everyone whose birthday falls within the first quarter of the year. Tomorrow shouldn't be a problem, but the Thursday there's a cookout. Then my mom's fried chicken Friday. See why I'm not feeling motivated to stick to the plan? I can't handle the stress of consistent Slim in 6 in addition to the worst allergy season in the past 10 years. I know I'm going to see a gain tomorrow. I'm not holding out a lot of hope for Friday's assessment at Curves. I think my body feels very, very comfortable between 195 and 200 pounds. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Lolipop (Candyman) - Aqua Tags: 52 weeks, curves, setback, slim in 6, venting, weight watchers

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March 30th, 2007

02:57 pm - The plan. From 4/1 to 4/11, there are only two things I'll consume that aren't on this list - Weight Watchers protein smoothie, and Smart Balance Buttery Spread. And those will be consumed in moderation. This'll make my sister's birthday less enjoyable for me, but hey, excuses are far too easy to find. I'm cutting the artificial sweeteners, too. This isn't going to be pretty, but it's the only way to see if things can actually work. Current Mood: grim Current Music: Techno Syndrome 7' Mix (Mortal Kombat) - The Immortals Tags: slim in 6, venting, weight watchers

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01:02 pm - I'm going to regret this... I'm letting things slip just a little. There are a few things I've eaten in the past 24 hours that haven't gotten (and won't get) written down. The bread from lunch yesterday. A few random pieces of chocolate. Pretzels-and-SmartBalance (I blame my husband with that one. He has the oddest ideas). A Twix bar, and the Subway cookies I got with my sandwich. My points balance is shot for the week thanks to Wednesday and Thursday, and rather than feel bad about it I'm going to chalk it up as a dead loss and move on. Strict dieting will resume Sunday, and I'll try not to go crazy and binge in the meantime. Feeling like absolute crap thanks to allergies makes it really, really hard to keep everything together. Last week I did okay on eating but not exercise. This week, I've done great on exercise but not eating. Next week, hopefully everything will fall into place. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Pinch Me - Barenaked Ladies Tags: setback

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